I just really want friends. People are so lucky to have best friends.
You cant force people to be your friends and I guess I just have to remember im a loner lol.
"When you find the man/woman of your dreams, wake up. If you then find yourself daydreaming about him/her, you may be on to something."
I have to say, today was the most relaxing day I have had in the longest time, like in months. Aside from the struggle of school, I just went out with these three guys, two of which I don’t really know that much and have never hung out with outside of school, and one thats a friend that im thinking of going to prom with lol. But anyways, we just decided to go to Indonesian restaurant bc they never had Indonesian food and wanted to try it, and it was just all so chill. It was interesting bc we’re all really different people so our topics of conversation ranged all across the board, from our different sins to music to our aspirations and philosophical matters and if you know me at all, I love conversations like these. These are the times that I remember. I mean I barely even talk to one of these guys, and I find out hes so wise for his age and his viewpoints are so agreeable with mine that it was crazy. But with our discussions, it was never too serious, we always managed to get a laugh out of it. After we ate, we just sat and talked and then drove back to Starbucks by our school and talked some more and I swear I could feel the sense of calm; it was a feeling I realized I have not had in a long long time. This hangout just took all my worries and bad thoughts away and I was just focused on then what was in front of me and I realized that I really am okay now, I am. Its time to move forward. Im really thankful for today, for talking and spending time with the people I talked and spent time with. Lord thank you for hearing my prayers.
The harder you are to read, the more interested I am into finding out who you are
im okay im okay im okay im okay im okay
First day of practice went really well! I hate running, but I love lifting weights because I love that sore feeling lol. On the other hand though, im extremely tired but I just ate so I cant sleep or else ill get fat… :(:(:(